The Week-full of obstacles

*sigh* so...maybe u've been wondering ..What's up with me? to tell u the truth, nothing's up....although these few days I've been down..I am pretty sure things are gonna get better, aren't they? Let's begin with what happenned last week? 1. The shock of my life -- washing machine broke... water flowed continuously to our kitchen floor.."WE HAD A POOL!!"..hot water at first, switched off the boiler, freezing water afterward...ended up scooping water until 4 in the morning...not how I wanna end my day after such a tiring day... BUT...s*** happens... and it happens at the time when u don't expect it to come 2. Another shock of my life -- not even 24 hours after the first shock...-- haven't even recovered yet --another shock came..this was like..worse..so. the first was a WARNING shock --ever heard of that?!?! Seriously... s*** happens...and it really happens when u never actually think that itz gonna happen..but.. some things are better left unsaid... sigh.. So, I was left despaired and disappointed...feeling hurt in another word.."feeling crap...really crap". Losing hope, feeling unworthy, confused and lost...again.... really..not knowing what to do... is not the state of my life that I want to re-live. Sometimes, I feel like "I want to be able to make the perfect decision", "I want to be able to know what to do when I don't", " I want to be able to 'be able' anytime anywhere..." guess what, these things don't happen...harsh reality of life.. but just have to accept it. so 24 hours after the 2nd shock... I couldn't face anyone... maybe it was because of my eyes.. maybe it was because of the weather.. maybe it was because of my laziness... maybe it was because i was shocked... One way or another...I didn't face anyone. i confined myself in my four-sided bedroom (So is anyone else's bedroom..oo well..) so.. yeah.. thinking...and thinking... i realized something about 5 states of receiving bad news 1. shock 2. denial 3. anger 4. bargain 5. acceptance so i'm still in 3rd stage for now.not sure about whether i'll move on to another stage ever. so, here I am... 168 hours after the whole thing... still in an "aftershock" period. still confused and undecisive.. things can only get better now, can they??? *sigh*