The Beginning

*Sigh...* You begin ur day by opening ur eyes... lying on the bed for another extra 15 minutes... just to feel the comfort of ur duvet... Looking at the clock opposite u... just to realize that u r already late for class Jumped out of bed.. tripped and fell flat on the ground (occasionally...) Rushed to the bathroom... to find that ur other housemate is using the one and only room u wanted to be in at that exact moment... Went back to ur bedroom... lying on ur bed AGAIN and wake up 3 hours later *Sigh...*

So... that's just a little bit of introduction of how my life begins most days in this cold and windy city...

Sometimes, I wonder, is this how it is supposed to be...? I mean...

As a medical student, we don't expect a whole lot of excitements...but, sometimes I think to myself, "am I in the wrong field?"..."do I want to spend the rest of my life..facing sick patients..talking to sick patients..treating sick patients..realizing that u cannot help those sick patients..any longer...?"

But last week, I found out more than half of medical students in UK.. think exactly da same thing that I think...

"well.. they don't spend bloody 20 thousand pounds each year..to attend med school..In fact, they don't have to spend any single quid at all..." So I think it's fair for them to actually think what they are thinking...

3 years in med school....What hav I learnt?next to nothing...Awww...that life is harsh..and that you spend half of your day.. trying NOT to give up what u believe in most...Although, I guess this happens to everyone...so..what can I do...?

I am just LOST...